Real Talk

If you got to know me...

you'd learn that I love music.

you'd know I play the saxophone.

you'd know that I eat a midnight snack just about every night.

you'd know I love ice-cream.

you'd know I fall asleep in the shower and I could sleep all day.

if you really knew me you'd know I hate - really hate - going to the dentist.

you'd know I love Mexican food and that most of my friends are Mexican.

you'd also know that I spend a lot of my free time going to car lots or looking on KSL at cars. I also keep a really clean car. You'd know my car is my baby.

you'd know I am a hard worker. you'd learn I have two jobs. 

you'd know I am independent.

you'd know I am pretty social and that I have a great sense of humor.

you'd learn that Sea Biscuit was my favorite movie.

you'd learn that I hate homework and I never really do it.

you'd know I hate when people are fake.

you'd learn I am afraid of heights.

you'd know I love my family.

you'd learn that high school wasn't really for me and I wasn't that great at attending my senior year and I just want to be done and move on. 

I Remember

I remember...

I remember jumping off the counter pretending to fly like Buzz Lightyear. I don't want to remember the stinky ball pit at Arctic Circle, but I do. I remember my grandma tending me. I remember my bunk bed. I remember chasing my dog Buster around the neighborhood when he escaped from the backyard. I remember singing to Mulan with my sister and pretending I was a warrior in battle. I remember my Bionicles. I remember moving. I remember my swing set and tree in the backyard. I remember my forts. I remember my pet lizard Stripes. I remember the Green Goblin. I remember my dog Chase. I remember running outside in goggles and hats in the summer having air soft wars. I remember my first job. I remember my first date. I remember when my sister left, but I need to remember to write her. I remember the going to the beach. I remember Dodger Stadium. I remember waiting in line at Disneyland. I remember trying to stay awake when I had to do my homework (last night). I remember.

Black Out

Truth

I wish we'd been friends.
Oh boo hoo.
Stop whining.
Maybe I needed it.
I bought me a car instead.
You could listen.
It breaks my heart.
I can't keep around anymore.
It was a lie. I tried.
It was tough to believe.
Good bye.

Instructions

How to get a date.

How you doin?

1. Just talk to them like a normal person.
2. Don't just talk about yourself.
3. Be nice.
4. Be interested.
5. No stupid pick up lines - unless they are really funny.
6. Don't show off.
7. Don't lie.
8. Give a compliment.
9. Suggest to do something.
10.Stay cool.

Sad Chair

The once deserted, empty, unoccupied, bare, desolate, and vacant chair - until the night before the end of the term and you need to pass to graduate chair.

Jealousy

dog

by
Valerie Worth

Under a maple tree
The dog lies down,
Lolls his limp
Tongue, yawns,
Rests his long chin
Carefully between
Front paws;
Looks up, alert;
Chops, with heavy
Jaws, at a slow fly,
Blinks, rolls
On his side, Sighs, closes
His eyes:sleeps
All afternoon
In his loose skin.

Jealousy. I had a dog. Once. This poem makes me wish that I still had my best friend and dog. The simple life of a dog. The loyalty a dog gives to you. It also makes me wish for long summer days where you can be lazy and lie down "under a maple tree" or "sleep all afternoon" with my dog. I am jealous that I don't have a dog.

The Moon

Here's a question. Why do people claim these facts about the center of the earth if no one has ever been there? How do people claim these facts about the sun when again no one has ever been there? How do people know all these 'facts' that they say they can prove but have never seen with their own eyes before? How do they know how hot the sun is? Did someone go up to it with a thermometer? Well I guess I should just trust them because they are scientists.

Space Camp

If you were to ask me when I was a little kid what I wanted to be when I grew up I would've said a police officer like my dad. Now that is probably not the case. 8th grade I wanted to be a lawyer. 9th grade I wanted to be a musician. 10th grade I planned on moving to San Diego and becoming a bum on the beach. 11th grade I was going to become a physical therapist. 12th grade and what do I want to do with my life? Who knows, I finally figured out something important. It doesn't matter. I'm going to do what I love. Whether that happens to be a police officer or a clown at a birthday party. I am going to do what I want.

Quiet

Isn't it funny how just because I show up to school late everyday and I don't talk to anyone people probably think I am shy or unsocial or a jerk. But outside of school I am one of the most social loveable people you'll meet. Sure I do a lot of stupid stuff but that's what being young is for. Just because I'm quiet doesn't mean I'm unsocial or not a fun person. All you have to do is get to know me.

Fears

What am I afraid of. On the outside, nothing. On the inside, everything.

Cool Kids

Cool kids. This ones to you. You all think you are so cool, you're 'popular', you're better than everyone else, you think you're untouchable. Well guess what you got a group of friends who all just want everyone to think they are cool. Well you all look retarded. Get really loud at lunch and don't talk to anyone who isn't in your popular crew. No one thinks you are cool. It's people like you who make kids feel like crap. Hope all of you cool kids who think you are untouchable are ready for the real world where you aren't the cool kid anymore. It's going to be a big change.

Bricks

So what are bricks good for? Anything you can think of. Smashing things, stacking, balloon weight. But who honestly cares? I sure don't care if a brick is good at holding balloons down. When I think of this post I don't think we are really talking about bricks. I think we need to stop thinking with our heads. Start thinking with our hearts. If you want to be good at something or if you want to be creative or whatever you want to be your head will give you reasons why you can't or why you shouldn't. Your heart will only push you to what you want to become. Well this had nothing to do with bricks but like I said earlier who cares.

Honesty

Am I too honest on my posts? Should I pour everything I feel into these? Should I just say what people will like? Should I pretend to be someone else and write whatever it takes to get into the hall of fame? Or do I sound stupid writing these question? Nah man I'm just gonna stick to who I am. If that's not okay with you, well you can blow me. I'm going to continue to put my soul into everything I write. I think everyone should put everything they have into everything that they write, or what they do. Work hard at your posts don't just write them for the credit. Write them for the world. Write them like it's your last words of your life and you want to get them on the page. That's how I feel every time I write these words. I may not be very good at writing but I'm not going to let that stop me from trying.

Different

Maybe it's bad but when I hear or see the word DIFFERENT I think of this dude

and the words "I'm different yeah I'm different" come into my mind. You gotta respect him even if he is rap is whack. Because he is definitely different. Some times it is hard to be different. But it is worth it to be different.  I take pride in being different most people around this area. I work for everything I have. I work 40 plus hours every week, have two jobs, and still go to high school. I know there are other kids who do this too but not a lot. I look at it as me being different than kids my age. I find lots of happiness from what other people are not willing to do. I know you are reading this like weren't we supposed to be different with fonts and be funny. Yeah probably but I'm being different by keeping it the same. Brilliant or stupid it doesn't matter it's my blog. 

Mirrors

Mirrors dude. Lets put 72 mirrors in the hallway of lone peak. What the hell? Everyday I come to school and pass 100 mirrors. I also pass 1,346 people stopping and looking at themselves every time they pass one. Are we that self conscious about how we look. Not that it is a bad thing that we like to look nice. I'm just saying that if you stop and look at yourself in every mirror you'll eventually notice a blemish. No one really cares how you look but you. That blemish you just noticed now makes you feel a little less confident. No one else will know it is there. If you didn't stop at every mirror you wouldn't have either. That is why I never look over at myself when I pass them. I can't change who I am. I don't want to change who I am. I'm good with how I look and I don't feel the need to impress every one who goes to lone peak. Honestly I couldn't care less about what the fellow class mates of mine think about me. Not a single person that goes to lone peak now will influence what I do with my life or how much money I will make or how happy I will be when I get old. That is why I've never felt like I need to look in the mirror at school. I'm happy there are all of those mirrors though. It makes life a little easier for the people who care what everyone thinks of them. Just based off of how they look.

Love

What is it? No one can tell me what it really is. No one can put it into words. So how am I? Can you love somethings that is not a human? What about an Xbox? Can someone really love an Xbox? I guess some people might say yeah I love my Xbox. For me that's not love. Love is meant for living things. I love my dog. I love my girlfriend. I love my sister.

Who am I to tell you what love is. I'm sure some people agree with me and I'm sure some people don't. Either way that is what I believe love really is. Love is something you just know you have for someone when you can your 100% natural self with them. When you don't feel awkward farting in front of them. When you know that you have fallen in love. It is a feeling like no other.

100%

"You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take." –Wayne Gretzk
This why is the reason I take chances. This is why I always try to take advantage of all the situations I'm put in. I don't want to be old and say to myself I wish I would have done that, or I wish I would have tried that. Just think these words when you don't want to do something, or if you want to do something but you are scared to do it. Just remember You Will Never Make A Shot If You Don't Try To Shoot.

Crayons

Your wee voice doesn't give a FUCK about the Publishers or the Hollywood Producers. What I'm saying here is you need to be creative. You got your crayons taken away. Steal them back! What is the point of not doing you and caring what people think of what you are doing. Have you ever noticed the people who are richest never took the route everyone told them to. They stole back their crayons and did things the creative way. They came up with ideas in their imaginations and made it happen. They didn't listen to the people who said that's stupid, or don't do that, or just go to school and learn and go to college. Just like I said don't just do what other people consider acceptable. Think about what you think is acceptable then go farther. If you make something powerful and special and honest and true you will succeed.

Stop Being Close Minded

Something that really grinds my gears is the fact that people in this area are so close minded. The mormons around here think that if you are not mormon you are probably a bad person. If you turn 21 and get drunk you are a bad person that they shouldn't talk to. If someone smokes a blunt you are automatically a druggie or a stoner. That is what is wrong with the people around here. Who cares if someone does that every once in awhile. Whats wrong with trying new things. That rap is all evil. All they talk about is sex and drugs. But some of the music is so deep and makes you want to be a better person and want to love more. I can't handle the fact people around here are so close minded. Does it matter I have a cup of coffee every morning? Does it matter that I swear when I talk? If someone tells me they are offended by me cussing. It's like I'm offended that you think you can tell me how to talk. All I'm saying is stop being close minded. Leave Utah County and you'll realize that not everyone is Mormon and not everyone is a bad person. I don't think it's cool to diss on people, but I just had to get on the page.

Human

What the hell does it even mean to be human? What makes you human? Does it mean I'm human because I am a living person? Am I human because I have a heart beat, cuz I eat food? Or am I human because I can trust and love? There are tons of ways to describe being human. But what makes me human is the fact that I trust to much. I believe everyone and that's how I get screwed over. I fuck up. I make a lot of mistakes and sometimes I choose to learn from them sometimes I decide to ignore the lesson I teach myself and mess up again doing the same thing. Being human is being unique, different, fun, not going through the motions. You can graduate from high school and go to college get a degree then get a job, but guess what. You are going to die the same. Enjoy being human. Don't be another person who just goes through the motions. Being human means you can choose who you want to be. You can choose to go the same path everyone goes down. But if you are like me I'm going to take the road less traveled. I know people are going to not like me and think I should just be like everyone else. But it doesn't matter. I'm going to be the human who does what appeals to me. I'm going to be the human who does what I want. I'm going to be the human who doesn't care what everyone else thinks. I'm going to be the human who is going to do things the round-a-bout way. But then again what do I know I'm just a 17 year old kid.

It's the Game of Life

"It's the game of life. Do I win or do I lose? One day they're gonna shut the game down. I gotta have as much fun and go around the board as many times as I can before it's my turn to leave."
                  - Tupac Shakur

I believe that life is to short to do the boring things. I think we should all live our lives like we want to. Lets be the people who think for themselves. Do what we want, when we want, and how we want. If we just go through the motions all our lives what are you going to look back on and say you are proud of. Live life with no regrets. I would rather look back at my life and say I'm happy I did that, rather then say I wish I would have done that. Make sure whatever you are doing is fun. Don't let life get boring. Don't let what everyone else wants or what everyone else is doing effect you. Be yourself. You are born an ORIGINAL don't die a COPY.